The First Bone - Transformation

The idea for this book came about as I was creating a workshop format - "Writing Down The Bones of The Dreamtime Self." And from the story/legend of La Loba - the Wolf Woman - who collects all manner of things in danger of extinction. She searches through the stream beds, the woods, and valleys - searching for the bones of the wolf. When she has gathered all of these bones she lays them out on the floor of her cave creating the skeleton of the wolf. And when the last bone is laid in place, she sits and she dreams and she thinks of the song she will sing out over this skeleton. And when she knows the song she sings it out over the bones on the floor of her cave next to the fire. And as she sings her voice grows stronger and louder - and rumbles like the earth itself, and in her voice is the sound of the great north wind, and the roar of the ocean, and the clap of thunder, and the streak of lightening. And on and on she sings - and as she does the bones of the wolf begin to flesh out - and take shape and form - and then hair covers the bones - and a tail, strong and shaggy, pops up. And the wolf moves - stretches itself - and standing upright - it sniffs the air - and running out the door of the cave it runs down the stream bed - as a beam of moon light, or perhaps a ray of sunlight hits it in its side - and it becomes a woman or a man running wild and free.

This book is about the transformation of ourselves through the discovery and collecting the bones of our authentic self. Like La Loba we must begin the search for that part of the self that is on the verge of extinction - the authentic self. This book is about my gathering these bones from the archives of my life's writings and bringing them together in a readable form called chapters/bones. The first section is the gathering of the bones. Once the bones were gathered and assembled on the floor of my cave/my computer I began the task of awakening them. I had to recall and remember the song of awakening to sing out over the skeleton gathered and laid out in front of me

The second section is the awakening the bones; the singing of the song that brings them to life through the stories of my dreams and meditations. Stories that metaphorically speak of my coming awake like the wolf on the floor of La Loba's cave. And this skeleton of my authentic self took on life and as it did it awoke and ran free into the landscape of my waking self.

The third sections is the integration of the authentic self into my daily life. This sections is about the learning how to live awake and connected to this being that I have gathered and sung into life. These chapters/bones are written as the book takes shape and form. They are the daily stories of life and of living life from that authenticated place.


La Loba is the archetype of the instinctual self; she lives in the caves, and river valleys, and woods of all of our homelands. She resides at the center of our beings and she whispers to us in our dreamtime; calling us awake in our dreaming space. She is circumscript - always fat, often hairy, and usually avoids most human company. It is said that if you are most fortunate, and perhaps are very tired as you enter your dreamtime, and if you have a tendency toward the wild and unusual in your life; then she might take a liking to you, and if she does she may show you something, something of your soul.

As I gathered, laid out, sang over, and created this book La Loba did take a liking of me. She danced me awake, she fed me the potion of self realization, and she sang her own song in the ears of my dreaming self. I would wake most mornings with the sound of her singing ringing in my heart and this sound let me carry the potion of the self realizaton from my dreamtime into my waking world. And in taking a liking to me she gave me the next bone the rememberance of my first big dreamtime: